I feel terrible. Really terrible. It's like what is between us is coming to an end/has come to an end. I can't quite put my finger on how I'm feeling now. Maybe bizarre, and scared, and every other word that has the same meaning as "scared".


I am scared.

But this is life. So just go with the fucking flow. And hopefully this uneasy feeling will go away soon.

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. Everything just feel so wrong. And the thing is I don't even know what it is. Confuzzled.

Urgh, hate myself for always staying up late. One of my goals is to sleep latest by 10/11 (or make it 12). Morning shift tomorrow and new store manager, assisant store manager and team leader. Good luck to myself, and the dino people.

And, my tattoos require touch up. Some parts have faded and it's like, I've to spend money on them again. Blah.

I wna learn to speak Cantonese. Learned a few basic ones from Francis and Seow Wei just now. "Sek xi ah"! Hee.

Good night, don't let the bed bugs bite.

Today is a good Monday, perhaps? Woke up with soft hair. This happens once in a blue moon, or never at all. Told mum and she had to add in," Your hair will turn rough when you continue to roll in the bed later."

I have double eyelids on my left but never on my right eye. So... Today I woke up with double eyelids on both sides whoopeedoo!

"Pain makes people change."

"I am not perfect. I have my own emotions, feelings and weaknesses. Don't expect too much of me."

"Whatever I've said, don't take me too seriously."

His scaffold piercing is to die for.

TOP. Hello you.

 I'm going cray cray!

Almost strangers

It's 1:24 am and my thoughts are going wild. I shouldn't be saying this, but I miss you, so damn much, these shit don't matter anymore.

"We are infinite"

CAN'T WAITTTTT.

"The capacity of love a human can hold. Remarkably astounding."

Today was supposed to be a stay-home Sunday for me. Asked mom to buy maccas with extra value meal so I can have my Birdie x Hello Kitty! *waves* And guess what, it's out of stock. So in my most cui state, I went to northpoint hoping they would have it. OOS. I went to another market's maccas and it was OOS too. So I took a train to Sembawang and Admiralty (quite zzz I know) and it was all sold out. So I was asking around hoping my friends would eat maccas for dinner or something and get it for me. But most of them said it was sold out... :"( Just woke up from my nap and was listening to Blue by Big Bang and then Ariel whatsapped me a picture of the Birdie x Hello Kitty!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I CAN DIE I TELL YOU hahahaha. I'm seriously damn haaaaappppy!!!!!

I seriously regretted not eating maccas earlier this week. The last Hello Kitty that is going to come out, whoa I tell you man I'm gonna eat maccas on the day itself! Hahahaha omg I'm seriously so happy but to be happy over this kinda stuff seems so stupid! But... something to cheer me up from my otherwise moody Sunday. :")

P.S. I can haz Birdie x  Hello Kitty naow ^^ *do somersaults in my room* heeeheee

“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.” 

“It's much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change and friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people. You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm going to be who I really am. And I'm going to figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn't do or what they didn't know. I don't know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It's just different. Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it's okay to feel things. I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.”  

“It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it too.”

“I would die for you. But I won't live for you.” (I fucking love this quote)

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I'm officially in love with this book. Gna try to finish reading them by today (It's not thick anyway) and prolly re-read hundred times again. Brb.

yummy fen yuans ^_^

I love the skyline

Planning to bring ze family for a one night stay at MBS soon heh

Seriously need to get a Nimbus 2000 right now so Ttengy and I can fly into the museum immediately :3

Brought my DMs out to play today! Matched the outfit with a sheer chiffon black top and Feist Heist Anique Skirt. It looks like a school skirt. Heh. I am falling in love with this skirt. Feel like getting another one but black is sold out.. As for white, I'm just so anal about getting white bottoms. Think I will come home with the skirt turned black.

Anyhoos, attended the play themed "Self-harm" by Ariel's brother and other casts. I seldom watch plays, but it was soooo good? Before I watched, what I thought of self-harm would be like, injuring yourself like slitting your wrist? But I was so wrong. They acted out many scenarios, and I was really amazed. And nearly teared.

Like there's scene whereby the mum left home and the dad had a new girlfriend and neglected the daughter badly. The daughter knocked on the door till dawn and had to sleep outside while the dad and his girlfriend were at home, drunk. So they had a huge fight and the daughter said that she hated her dad. When the psychiatrist asked her why she hated her dad, her reply was," They don't care, so I don't care too." In a way it's like the circumstances make her harm herself in a way that she drifts apart from the people she loves...

I enjoy it so much.. Don't mind watching it again.. I've learnt so much from this play. I am starting to look at things from a different point of view.

Was craving for some pushcart's icecream and yes, we found one at cq!

Headed to Taka Kino to get my book (The perks of being a wallflower) but it's sold out... So I decided to give Bugis Kino a try and I searched the four big shelves since there was no one at the information counter. Asked the cashier for help and oh blimey, it was just right.... in front... of me.... Bought The Little Prince and National Geographic magazine too. Gonna bury myself in the books for the next few days~

Was on the way home from work and I saw this on the cabin floor in the train.